I think of people like Timothy McVeigh and others who did senseless terrorism against the government, believed they would spark some kind of revolution after reading the Turner Diaries. The people whom I must have gathered all those years ago when I said we needed a revolution. I had no way of knowing what would happen after that.
No control of the armies unleashed, the racists, the killers, the... cannibalisms, the elevating of humans beyond a humble state... is in general troublesome. Only the humble should rule, not the fucking overly confident. Those who really listen to experts, and know they are no better than others.
To those who were part of this cult, which included racism, .there is not a hell of a lot I can say. I am not going to oppress you. That has already happened. Your fate now is left to your future behavior, not your past, in my mind... for what it is worth. you had world leaders telling you this was Jesus, but I was too insane and ashamed of the very idea, to talk to anyone openly about it... and those I did rebuffed me.
Caught in the maze of lies and handlers. Like M. And probably Barbara. There are too many things which tell me I was chosen. For reasons I am not quite sure about? Did I gather a following on the web with my writing who thought I wanted a revolution? You have told lie after lie in your media. Was I chosen for this?
Why would you bother going to all this trouble? How much of a threat am I to you? Nothing you can do will make me give up on the idea that people can work together. I am more socialistic than ever when it comes to class. But I do not want enemies. It brings them.
I made heroes out of people I would not have respected had I known all about them. Chavez was one. Had I known he beat undocumented workers, etcetera. I understand this was a different time, but in my Childhood, one summer, I picked strawberries near my house with a bunch of farm workers... my memory was I was doing it for a few days to make pocket change, and they had families working hard and serious. The wild strawberries were so abundant in the woods near our house, grew on this moss that was like a soft cushion, and we would lay there for hours eating them, perfectly ripe.
I made jokes about some women cult on line to that women who died of throat cancer, her father a politician and she despised them, knew their above the law ways, etc.
. But the plan was not mine. I was merely the thing left over.... or someone they made money off of... I cannot figure this out.
I cannot imagine the mind fuck you went through, and how hard the enemies of the truth will fight to destroy the true narrative. I will do my best to add my subjective history, the part no one else can know, the internal dialog of a man who you mistook... with a million masks. I did not have to do anything. Metaphors. Not literal. How many faces do you have? If you are an internationally known celebrity you have a different one for every head. There are groups who believe this and this. I have no idea how much you all know about me.
A few years ago I was in such agony over all of this I did not know how I would go on. So I put on the mask of the tough guy. I had used it before, but when Biden said I was a normal Joe, in most ways he was right. In others... perhaps my spirituality has been boosted by the brainwashing, my rhetoric changed, but I usually felt the presence of God in my life. Sober I had God, most of the time. Regardless, I did not feel the judgements I read about in Christianity applied. I had read too many other books, novels and histories that became truth to me.
The Christianity I heard with Jesus, God, and the Holy Ghost was odd to me. I left Jesus behind
They did not mention brainwashing me because they mistook me for a Nazi. Or so they told me at the time, making fun of this shit on their fucking podcast. I was surprised they brought up this Nazi stuff and Hitler with me at all. Jimmy and the drunken guy. Wore the wrong gangs color. The guy who had no ideas you had gangs at all.
I did not come here to be political at all, really. I was filled with love for everyone and expected to be greeted by people. They only time I was ever talked to was on TV.... and here I am in this Jesus state where I loved everyone and they seemed so nice... but that is not the way my God operates. This earth is filled with evil. A realm of objects dazzling humans enough to give up their soul. Treat others terribly. No manners that are consistent with one and all.
