Tired of Being Mired

      There is nothing to do except prepare for the Supreme Court to attempt the Illegal action of taking away the voting rights of black and brown and liberal people and poor people of all persuasions.  Middle class is what everyone thinks they are, but they are lower middle class if that.  They think they are capitalists but they do bot own the company.  So they are workers.  The company knows this well.  You do not own the company, you are not a capitalist.

YOU ARE A WORKER.  This is a class war.  If the economics were equalized, so would the power be passed around, so every one could win in this tact.  Has to be TAXES though.  On the Rich.  If the federal government does not want to do it, the states must.  Let the Blue states be the jewels where people want to live, and make them pay to do so.  WE ARE the culture, the artists -- not the sold out and displayed few fame ones used in the dog and pony show.  I want my people to invest in Illinois for now.  Anything I say is by any means necessary stops at crime.  Before I thought it was possible for my words to have such effects, I tried to be Robin Hood... what the hell, I am sitting here on my ass.  Little did I know what would become of such a thing, until you start asking me if I am a mobster.  I see why you would ask.  I will not allow that to effect my opinion of you.  Or at least my opinion of how OFF YOU ARE IN THINKING you know who I am.

I am the guy who someone tried to get involved in insurance fraud and bitched out a mobster over it.  That is me.  I could have gotten a lot of money and eventually a jail sentence, had I went along.  My morality said NO.  I heard they had blamed someone for an accident I had, in a beat up cab they were retiring in two days... which I did not report, and the cops did not write up.  I learned a year later, when a guy who was my friend and involved, told me they had done this.  Am I repeating myself?  Do you who read this with interest remember?  

I did not judge them because of that.  Just how they treated me.  I learned from Tony that they just were born into these families.  Not bad people because of it.  I just tried to stay out of peoples business, unless they were doing something in front of me, and then I always jumped in.  One night I saw a guy selling what seemed like stolen goods to me.  I had seen this poor guy before, and that is the only way he could have come across such a thing, I figured.   He did not object when I said the stuff was stolen, so I figured I was right.  He wore a blue shirt and had a tool box... never entered my mind.  The pain that was seemingly caused by this incident is displayed now in a statue with her dog.  France.  And her wounded partner.  

The next day I hear bullshit I cannot believe.  A blue shirt.  No, you do not have a right to blame me for this.  Or much.  Criticism from the kettle is something I took once when it made sense.  Most of the time I see what you have to redeem yourself for.  You may believe in nothing, but this nothing believes in you.  Despite all evidence, and to the hatred of the left.  I look at people wondering how much they hate me to this day...  in Chicago maybe they have been able to forget me.  The period has moved on or underground.  I suspect that there is still a power base.  I do not know what it means to believe in me.  Supernatural events are there in my words spoken to you in a mania I barely remember,  Though it is astounding.

I felt it this morning.  Since this has been pointed out to me, about the weather, I successfully made the snow stay at a certain state.  Once ten inches was predicted, my heart jumped and I said no...  the storm missed us.  All the other things.  If it were one, not... too many to count and many I just do not tell you.  Nothing spectacular.  

Whatever is happening my mind recoils from the use of violence.  I do not see the people coming together to fight as easily as they will come together to love one another, and know they can win, because they are the many, no matter what happens in this HUGE country.  Votes while we have them.

Already we are asked to stand by while children are thrown into cages, growing up not learning to speak they are so abandoned from family, teachers, any responsible adults, basically.  Our country does worse, but this is enough.

(2) Post by @notquietmodemd.bsky.social — Bluesky

Why Are The Blacks Staying Away From No Kings Protests

    I read this recently.  Not from the most reliable sources, but I pray to God this is not true.  BLM signs should be in this march.  Strong.  We can only change this regime by working together.  This is for all of our interests.  I am all in on saving the oppressed from acts of Evil.  I will do anything to stop Trump except hate my fellow US citizens.  I am not hating people who are brainwashed.

    I was brainwashed once, perhaps worse than them, or perhaps not?  Most people do not think they are being effected by television, when we hear of people who went Fox and then murdered someone, after seventy years of a peaceful life.  This is absolute evil.

Any influence I have says we stick together.  I do not care if you are rich or poor.  That is mostly how I look at this.  I know other cultures have their view, but this issue is common ground for ninety nine perent of the people.  Tax the Rich.  This matters.  

the lion no longer roars

 a tangled, blood encrusted mane surrounds

 a gasping mouth filled with teeth 

two intelligent eyes

scan the trail ahead.

His tracks leave the blood of others.

we are already copper

We will be judged as copper

Most go to Hell/

Copper unredeemed. 

I come for the murderers, the thieves, the women of the night

Those who reject this world around them and never knew why....

By God or ancestors or Karma or friends and relatives

You will be judged.

There is little fear in this

 though to some comfort that our enemies

who see no consequences will

will not be be let them go

say vengeance is Gods.

Or...

We make it safe to do so.

The Marines who are copper

would save a few tears on my part,

on the day you grunts are judged.

Once I said no one would go to hell

during this epoch.

I was trying to make the deaths easier on me

and you

I could never tell if it was true or a bad rational

I can be wrong.

Will be.  Must be.

This is how your mystery is unveiled to me.

Though I still think of the Mania when I demanded

Blood of a thieving, king to come who crawled over me

to get there.

I knew I had been used for evil by those I met.

Some.

Coming into my life as actors.

James wanting to join the show.

Or what they thought was a show.

I hoped the spiritual stuff was real.

Or at least could be... what came to me 

when I thought about it is hardly scripture to me.

Now. I think of all the people I worked with.  People who thought

I was worse than Trump.

A revolutionary cult gone awry.

Taken from these Heritage hands,

passed unchanged from our racist eras.

I was thinking how once I cheered on a side

That did not have my support.

A war with no need

cherry picked out of words or racial harmony.

Even now pointing out NBC is racist

And wondering how a black host could be involved with them

was taken so wrong...

Along with a professor who was right

Of course but I did not take time to explain

what I was referring to.

I certainly would not want to say I know better.

I do not.

I think of this often...  I saw his face.

The next morning 

to wake up with Trump thinking 

I am a hellion and would want to war with others over skin color.

I will not.  I will not take any side except justice

when you put a side up against a side.

I will NEVER go along with some group

trading genocide for legislation.

When I think of this I know...

If you meshed enough together we 

can concern ninety nine percent winning

is close enough to win win win win win

You want to try a bit more of heaven of earth...

try.

No promises,

No hope is best.

Just do.

Expectations will stop you before you start.

Copper called up.

Thank you warriors of God.

May you present grace and dignity

to our creators eye.

May your Moral Compass be strong

Your righteous anger raging

Not at other humans

At trends we have to end our way,

before they put final nail on the press's coffin.

Dragging Bodies Behind

the white house is

sharks in a pool of blood

 going kill-crazy.

Where are we going on this earth?

into the ground

to become dust

eventually decay as a planet into

bits afloat toward the largest gravitational field available

I left my body.

Twice.

Something exists without molecules

Will leave them when I die.

I od'd  and died six times

My last vision flying out of my body into a red sun.

Very cool feeling that lasted a fleeting instant.

Then I was waking up having almost bitten my tongue in two.

I believe now we die in God's time.

Too many times have I tried to leave this body.

Premonitions perhaps of the torturous life to come?

God's will, will be done.

Now where is the power in this USA

as those I have fought

Knowingly or not

Since this began.

They raped my  mind.

Decided I was Hitler and had to remove that...

Was that a personality inserted inside me,

or me not knowing what your colors meant and wearing brown?

Does not matter.  You cannot change the morality of the one I serve.

You should be terrified of the one I serve.

You should also be much, much, much more terrified of me

than you ever have been

If you believe in God,

and the one you call his son,

because my words bear witness

in the book of life and death

to the sins and grace that determine

which journey a soul has be sent 

to cleanse the hatred keeping them from God. 

Maybe...

I can never be sure of what can be known

and what cannot?

Blessed are the peacemakers, for they are the children of God.  Jesus said.

I like this of course we all know this to be true.  

Those who profit on our wars spend the money 

that could stop our extinction.

Still...  I sit here thinking that if I went to a protest

I would be vilified. 

I do not know my place in this world.

How you see me is now hidden.

The television has changed or gone back to or...

I have no clue what they are doing.  

During this period all I can do

is offer power and praise.

Like the good Bishop on Democracy Now

this morning.

I have always loved him

yet when orange was strong they crossed a line

they kept out blacks and this I will not do.

I wondered when I saw him if he blamed me for that,

because I was an instigator but had no clue

who picked up the gauntlet and all that.

I sit back and watch where things go...

Realizing and trying to accept that I am not qualified 

to say a lot.

I don't want to hurt peoples feelings for the hell of it.

I thought I was at war 

with people who would not stop watching me.

I did not realize what a psycho world you have yet.

Now that I do...

I am sorry that merely making me angry pleases

Certain people.  You have been through more than I know.

I see Adam Sandberg and Conan O'Brian come up on my feed

I know horrible things happened that was called my doing.

I am not going to take responsibility for what others did.

I am going to try to take responsibility for what I have done.

I apologize to Sandler and O'brian.

It doesn't matter how they feel about this to me.

It is not like I know these people,

or have anything that matters to say about them.

They have both made me laugh.

I used Conan as an example.  

But what once bothered me is done.

I will not allow anything to stop me from the truth

though my way of expressing this has to change.

I don't want to bring more violence into this world.

Though I have to stop pretending this does not exist.

I see no way to use violence to get the USA out of their problems.

I see ways this can be done peacefully...

Then I remember a Peacekeeper stopped a mass murderer

from attacking an anti-trump parade.

Horribly killing a person.

So...

I will have nothing to do with it

though an old part of me

that fought so long still spurs

when an infection in society is cured

feels the moment with trepidation. 

Nothing I would ever want.

Did not know the guys name,

though I familiar with the game.

Go in peace... or just go...

I have held my tongue on your Mark Twain awards

Why give you fodder I figure.

You are part of the sickness that took over my life.

You are part of the sickness that is allowing this country to die.

Coming after me when the real enemy

the one I have tried to fight since discovering,

will soon come for you.

I was used

and the trillionaire enslavers have now managed to get a president in.

I knew I was too ignorant to be president, personally....

Figured there were plenty of people more qualified than I am.

Cain and Able

      Able goes off to war, Cain takes over in basic training;  a combination of the two come home.  Most think of the killing as a horror they would hate to see repeated.  Or, I do.  Violence is a necessary act in war.  I, the person who did not understand who was using me, or why?  I do not think this is some plan they have that is working.  I think like always these people are going to lose.  I know they want violence, but if this is not done peacefully, I do not believe it can escalate?

    If I am wrong, it gets me killed or whatever plans if any you have for me.  Trade me for time by sacrificing me to Trump.  Do it if he threatens a nuke some night at 1 am because by three he will be stoned enough to hit the button.  I am kidding.  If he hates me enough to use a Nuke... well, I am not a threat to earthly thrones.  Just not prone to accepting one myself.  When a preacher talks politics, they become a politician.  

 I would rather die than kill, as far as my personal defense goes.  If you are somehow someone who relies on me for defense, in any tiny way, than I will fight for you.  I am copper.  I am no longer in denial.  I did not want this but it happened.  Like enemies.  I wanted a fight so bad for awhile.  Thank God I never instigated but one on purpose... and I will always regret them all, as failures.  I also went along with people I did not understand.  Because I not only believe in equality, I think unless you bring in all kinds of people it will not work.  I will work with my group or whatever.  I thank you.  I am humbled anyone is still around.  White cats.  

I do not care what your or my background is.  If you do, God bless, but I have no culture really, that matters, other than midwest I will treat you how you treat me, kind of thing.  A nice guy, I was once known as.  Then a monster.  In war.  I encouraged this.  I look ridiculous in my memories, bitching at people all the time.  Or wanting them to like me.  Which of course never goes away...  But I am not allowing hate to infect me anymore than I can,  I judge too subjectively.  

I have said angry things that you give people awards for.  Go up against me and win an award.  I am sorry for you, the pain that scarred your minds and emotions so much, that you hate this guy in Chicago for shit the people behind your president did.  And they had to brainwash me to get me all kill kill kill by the way.  No such writing, except in over the top comedy, appeared in my work before this.  I barely had any violence.

So, now I wish to apologize to people for what I did when I was crazy, but I was sane a lot of that time.  Just misinformed.  I was still me.  Just smoked weed and another personality took over.  And perhaps in times of severe stress, like the battles this decade.  I ended up seeing my side lose.  I am not the radical left, they did not survive, sadly.  Could use them now, many of you think, might be right I cannot tell.  I cannot tell if we had kicked him out and took over if I would suddenly find Chinese handlers with guns to my chest giving me orders against my country.  Not a risk I was willing to take.  Rather die.  I did not see Trump using the police as he said as 'my shock troops across the nation.'   I opened that bottle, let the machete wielding genie out of the bottle... odd his place smells of Sulphur and burning flesh.  

I warned you about dictators having an SS.  ICE.  Do you blue know any liberals you would not like to see in camps, relatives or school teachers or whomever the hell.  Maybe your priest or minister?  Any immigrants?  Remember 1/6 when the president cheered on police officers being attacked well.  I will be there on the other side but damn, republicans just made your jobs a lot harder.  All those violent reduction programs in Chicago are labelled DEI or something.  Bunch of shit.  Under Mayor Johnson we have our lowest crime statistics in years.

I made some serious overstatements, the kind that haunt me as I go to sleep, about Daly and Rahm.  They were part of a system that would have ripped them apart had they not went along like way too many people for me to blame anyone.  I did not do what I was accused of.  Unless it was...  but never skin tone. 

 

PISSED OFF.

 TODAY I finally let loose on the humans who have victimized me all these years, making money off of me, keeping me a prisoner with a hood over my head, unable to see what is happening.  What you did to people is in my head playing forever.  I do not deserve this shit.  I accept it and do not believe in revenge, and though I have the impulse, I would never act upon it unless I had a gun and was in the mood.

It was juvenile and stupid though these things needed to be said by someone like me for some reason.  I feel manic this week.  Something inside of me is stirring that is ...  that part of me which is God.  I believe others have this as well.   Mine have consequences or not.   I have been so angry and wanted violence before.  It was pathetic of me.  I expected help.  I could see nothing.  Or, they have manipulated me all these years.   I cannot care at this point.  God created me, or their little fucking plans would have worked.  I would not vote for clinton because she likes pedophiles, or considers them great enough friends to handle their money.  I wanted Sanders like every sane person.

Then when you should have been trying to make nice you have Sarah fucking Silverman calling people idiots for not doing what a hollywood star and all her friends want.   I believe in celebrities using their voices.  But you all went along with my torture.  I stopped yours.  So take your fucking high horses and ride them off a cliff.

 I do not know why you keep watching me.  This is what caused you all this pain, and I have had no control over this.

So Conan O'Brian.   When you really like someone and they accuse you of being a pedophile at the lowest point in your life, it hurts, like he meant it to.  So I want to hurt him back.  Just a few words that bone head will get all self righteous about because his dad was so fucking fascinating.  Glad you had a wonderful life Conan.  Born with your boots on all you have ever done is petty shit like make money and try to get people to be your fans.   No helping the world, no making a difference, nothing...  just making money.   

Adam Sandler I do not care about.   I heard him slamming Palestinians and being all apologetic for the Zionists when they were moving into peoples houses, spraying neighborhoods with raw sewage, torturing people into madness in their prisons.   But Adam was worried about the Olive Growers, who stole the fucking Olives from the Palestinians.   The Zionist Murderers also burned Olive Groves.     I want them all brought down about ten pegs.   Metoo helped but that sure is on the rise again.  The abusive atmosphere of yelling and shit that abuses power buys into the whole SUBMIT OR LOSE your career shit, but I would not expect them to care about that.

Think about all the Hollywood Scandals they all knew about and did nothing.  That is not normal.  The good people in that world are tainted by association.  This is happening, and should not, with Jews over Gaza.  

I do not stereotype in my mind, unless I see people doing something over and over, the same group.  We are going to talk about the summer you interrogated me, and what happened before that.   I pray you can be forgiven for this.  The problem is now, and trying to get SOMEONE TO PREPARE FOR THE FUTURE coming for these kids.  This is why they need to vote, not the old people.  Whether you think so or not you have too much invested in this system to really want things to change, unless they are directly effected.

I could nYot stop yet when David Byrne said you should free me.  So some know I am innocent.  That you just keep me jailed, afraid of what I will do///  well, you fucking should be if you think the rich should not be taxed, people should be kept in cages, even toddlers with no adults...  this is both parties.  The democratic socialists, along with the right underground moves, we can stop this and finally get to work.  We need refugee centers, not concentrate camps.  If we are going to jail people with no criminal record, going thru the proper channels, than people are forced to be criminals.

I want no blood money.  I still believe I am owed a hell of a lot in compensation.  I passed that up once because you brainwashed me and I did not know you had cut peoples arms off.   I remember this and one with a guy leading women in a revolution that was just to get songs about them.  NO.  I was being framed by the people behind trump, two steps, not in the light and those who read this know it but no logic will ever reach you.

I will continue to give orders like today.  I will NEVER give you a hint.  I will never write anything down.  If my words are garbled, fine... they try to kill me Musk you should head off to Mars, only place you are going to be safe.  Someone needs to snatch you, and take control of you.  Soon they will.  You are a fool....

There now this is my response to you in writing.  I am not sorry about what I said about Conan or Adam.  As far as I am concerned they have nothing to do with my world.  I saw the evil hatred in conan, like I did in that home alone shit.  You rewarded him, too. What, you say something bad about me they They give you a prize....  Orange I told you that the movement was peaceful.  Others used the color.  I disavow it, except as a reminder of a real person who has done something with their lives besides make money, and please their senses....   me, nothing new.  

The Copper

 

The copper lion

leaves a sun glistening trail of blood through the tall grass.

It's own or another's is irrelevant at this point;

Does he look for a good place to lay down and die?

No, just walks on as he always does,

his wounds always too fresh to heal. 

My Path Was Not Chosen,

Dragged down mine in a straight jacket

Given a virtual world 

to live out for the view of the world.

A child kept from the violence like the young Buddha

Only to discover the suffering of the world

Setting out to stop as much as possible.

A creature who grew wings 

has miracles happening around him.

The weather at his behest.

The Holiest 

understand

 I AM love and peace,

beaten to a crawl,

forced to carry a backbreaking cross thru the streets

battered by the taunts of those I once loved.

 

Today I know all people can unite in one family,

and will when in earth it is as it is in heaven.

Hard to see there from here.

My visions and all I have to believe to carry on

tells me I will follow the science 

not what is politically expedient.

I have always felt alone and isolated.

This was from using the television

Instead of going out among people.

I was embarrassed at the thought

I was Jesus.

I did not live a life for you to follow.

I did not want you to watch and listen to me.

Since this was there I used it first to fight you

I was ignorant.  Barely followed politics

sickened by what I saw.

Now, I know there is some ruling cabal

of some sort or another.

And groups like the one I was with 

my so called family.

Now I have disappeared from mention on the tv I have,

a nice enough relief after all the triggers.

My Youtube feed all of a sudden had It's All In My Mind

and a lyle lovette song to the effect.

I will NEVER forget.

I will try to forgive.

I will never be more deadly than I am now.

Your blind spots are filled with your doom,

Ready to bring light to your darkness.

The Hand of God is mine.

The deadly rages he fills me with seem of the past.

Yet I see old allies and know by any means necessary could come.

I who wish to use the lawful means to deal with this

Putting no more officers in danger

Over the actions of Billionaires.

I am on the far left

This does not seem to jibe with my work with the Police;

I feel for all people and see into the minds of many 

-- or try.  

Dark places.

I believe the police

and the community

can solve problems.

I mostly know in twenty years,

we will need Guardians,

devoted to keeping Morality alive.

Not allowing the narrative of ethics

to be molded into the the perversions of their cult leader.

I will move through churches as holy water

whatever denomination I am in I will be

temple, mosque, cathedral, ashram

taking what is universal

into my stream

of attempts at wisdom

I have been choosing my words peaceably.

I once wanted a revolution, 

Purely out of being pissed,

at being brainwashed and ignored.,

I thought I would be approached

This shit explained.

I was making jokes

And you wanted to have a summer of Jesus.

I cheered on armies just because you said they were on my side.

Meaning I was out of danger.

I had no idea what the ramifications were.

Now, here we are...

Not exactly a Jesus here.

I was not raised with the humble dignity of a carpenter

I was not raised religious enough for it to matter much

I was raised to do what I did, 

one way of seeing this...

which I find a cop out.

Lord, in this time of troubles

As in the Holy Land your people are starved to death

And no army can respond.

I pray to you for Peace on this land.

I pray that the open society we were moving toward

will become all the more urgent under Trump.

Democracy precious enough to reform the present crew.