Though my words have triggered great harm in the past, write I must, despite being in a minefield of perceptions that I trigger with missteps. I could just stagger thru them stoned out of my mind and with no idea where to go, what was going on, the man of steel ignoring all the people dying around me from the shrapnel. I did this before you told me my words could kill. I looked like a fool joking about such things... and something much worse than a fool when you thought I laughed over death, torture, and theft... even worse. I think to myself, Do they realize, real or not, Christ is in the bedrock of my soul, and I am kind, merciful... I will fight, reluctantly as hell and after decades of thought, or in a moment if the opportunity to do good, presents itself. The good I do came with a lot of pain at times.
I was thinking tonight since I destroyed the usa basically becoming a hive mind under one religion, dictator, and puppeteers, It was said in that Peacemaker show, on netflix, that by defeating the hive mind I had condemned the earth. That these creatures would have saved the earth, these people around me who wanted to do good and were much influenced by me... which is okay once in awhile if I am just being obviously ethical though be wary of subjectivity in my work, which may not apply to you at all... and I had stopped them. Of course this is the comic book version of this, based on a lot of myths about me. One sentence, a pr scheme, does not a revolution make.... the Industrialists Behind me, had the funds, the media, the whatever to do so, and tiff with each other, along the way.
This person who said I had given the people a choice, whether they wanted to destroy the world or not. Instead of having their thoughts stolen from them... brainwashed, into a cult, etc. I value free will too much to believe that becoming a hive mind is good for a society, in most respects. We have common ground enough to love each other, in most cases, if we get over our phobias enough to get rid of them, so we allow this love to reach us. Otherwise the people you meet will be Others, first to be feared, always, before slowly getting to know them. Starting without fear, stereotypes, etcetera, takes a bit of time, but not much. Those who get over xenophobia, racism, classism, etcetera, cannot believe the delusions they lied by before. There is always hope. I though think most about the disasters because so many befell me so quickly I had no time to contemplate what was going on, beyond the day to day battle, the war... and I know there are disasters to come
I wish to encourage those who wish to confront this without fear, or myth... well, some fear and some myth if they need, but confront nonetheless -- the world is dying. Not possibly... unless an entirely new surgical technique is developed, we are in for a slow, painful death. How painful that is depends on groups now, which first willf fight hopefully, then in the end, realize I am right, and become actual Force, which confronts the environmental Monsters running straight at us from our future...
I was a victim, who could never figure out why some liked me one moment, hated me the next, hailed and then told I had ordered horrible deaths. and threatened myself with torture, sale into sexual something, horrible world I discovered... since I am made of steel, only those around me were hurt, those protecting and trying to harm. I had no idea at this time what was going on, or even the sides that existed. Let alone the one they had placed me in,
I have finally been given enough information to know more, there it is never enough.... wary as I am of wanting to know more, and have my eyes grow all the more hollow..
Once I wrote of war and I ended up in war and I learned just enough about war to know that I had failed if people under me went to war, but if they were I must join the righteous side if I am a righteous man, and try to stop the madness. No matter how it started, that is not my business, damage control is all you can do. I have lived my life like that, because I am physically and emotionally damaged, mentally damaged... just damage. One does not stop driving a car with a bent fender, or in the case of war or anything.... and I kept the pedal to the metal.
I spent so long trying to strike fear into my enemies, a Batman mistaken for the Joker, terrifying good and evil alike, and sometimes as nothing, a bug to squash... which is why I have so many bodies surrounding me, a metaphor to some and terrible reality to others. I see a mine and hesitate, then look around and see this way has too many for me to go on... have to turn around and go back, try another way, another day....
I am not advocating loneliness. I am a writer and do not often get lonely though I am alone a lot. If I have a cat and a wife coming home that night... when I am writing nothing else seems as important. Not even my body.
I do not wish to get anyone hurt with my new work. I have learned why Harmony is required, and I learned by seeing people try clashing, and every time there was worse behind them than we have now. Our country has learned now what we are up against. I have seen both sides, worked with both sides, and been judged as part of both sides... told ya I was a circle, which while it made more sense once, I still feel as a world citizen.
I read back to the start of my other blog, which is flagged, and realized there was some classified, out dated material in it, written by my cover, and I need to stay away from that. I was still writing lies about living under the sea... etc A parable. In almost every way. My last lies... the ones that allowed me to finally wash up on the shores myself. Done fighting for my life, and ready to keep fighting for the rights of others, peacefully... this is my dream. Though I will adjust to the nightmares that may come along the way.... with the will and power of GOD, and immortality awaiting, I will fearlessly advocate peacefully for protests, voting, the USA leading the way. Leading by a violent revolutionary war is not the way. Any such activity should be looked at as an insurrection, and the arms forces have to step up an take their role to preserve Democracy..
I am praying for you world, and on this Native American day, may we colonialists see in Gaza what we once did, the European Whites and others, to millions... we have progressed beyond such behavior, to some degree, but it is important to remember our past. The right wing fanatics with nuclear bombs who care about nothing except taking this land once and for all, no matter who dies.... and at the risk of the Middle East exploding... the Endgame is where the real blood flows. The world knows, Now if we do not say something we are complicit.. You will be on the right side, or the wrong side of history. The US bubble of mainstream media and the star machine aside, people in the world see what is happening, whether they admit it or not....
God bless.
