Surveillance

 

Wild wild animals 

feral, hating the sight of me.

Seen behind torturous eyes

looking out at me from my tv.

Sometimes seems like my captivity and kidnapping and illegal jailing

is amusing.   Just what I deserve for not going along with a coup,

set up by industrialists over a hundred year ago.

or

something else

Too vile for horror

Films that took place.

My sorrow seems

insulting to offer perhaps.  

I have no way

Of knowing

hints I get of a story too dark to tell another.

 Your smile says my story is amusing to you

I think as I listen to psychotic words

of mass murder...

shown by a story of macaroni of all types found in a gorgeous woods.

 Odd enough to make the news

smiling he says, "They even have the ones that look like a wheel."

and how one piece of a macaroni

in the pile of all sorts of pasta in a woods

is shaped like a wheel.  

They made me 'the car' in a race I know

Little about. 

In a commercial that went away/along

with others...  like the one saying 

together we can accomplish something one alone cannot.

 I think about what is most vital and I believe that is focusing the FORCEs  this event we know will produce the Greenhouse effects.  er the world believes

sometimes newscasters look at me with fear when I watch them

others make money --- I was sold as porn

when I asked for privacy by  reminding you some of life

is X Rated -g- meaning quit watching

you began killing

ran from me 

when a few simple words would have saved what millions.....

over  and over you simplified me into a comic book villian

thinking your lies would never be dragged into the light.

No  one  in this world of mine feels real.

I am going to create a sanctuary

in Chicago 

for the grandchildren of babies being born today.

If I can.   I will reassure them 

of the existence of a soul

that no judgement falls on them

for this dying planet.

Try  to speak simply

more worried about being understood by all

than any literary eloquence 

      

                                                                                                                                                                                                                 

Wrath

 I have never quite known all that was done to my mind.  However, anyone who looks at my behavior during the decade or so after should be able to see someone was going to great lengths to destroy my life.  There was the classic brainwashing, however I went manic, and started writing religious poetry just days before that... From people telling me they were taking Hitler out of me, making jokes about it on the radio show.  I wore a borrowed brown hoody and people thought I was a Nazi.  I had no idea they had any power at all anymore?  Let alone different colors meant different things.

They call  this A BUFFALO JAIL in fucking intelligence parlance.  I  was drafted, used, and  my hatred for all the world who seemed to have all these plans for me I evidently blew up....  usually because no one told me what the hell is going on in the world.  I realize now they have a future planned that an ethical person would fight, as I have every fucking evil I have ever come across.

I DO NOT understand why my words seem to have some meaning in your world, though again, I have little idea why at this point.  I an owed big time for what was done to me, but whoever did it, the one percent in the beginning, who had all theses commercials at first saying I was an angel.  I am tired of being considered anything. Human lies fill their holy books.  The wise are also there, some of the sacred.... but if you can take one book and spawn all the different versions of religion, you know that the selectivity used by the churches to push their own agenda is a factor,

I believe in God and Hell.  I also believe in an after life, a soul in  a body.  I astral projected twice.   Other miracles seem to have happened around me as well, but people, by design of the EVIL that created this, tried take others free will and turn it over to me.... or them.

I discover your groups...   which you seemingly think I know about at times.

 

I do not know what actions others took around me.  I never raised a hand, stole a dime, or wanted a president harmed -- I saved them, thinking they would be grateful....  saved the country from people around me who often thought I was their leader, showing once again I have no chain of command.

A year ago hell broke lose when as I went to bed, a group said they had been waiting ten years to start the fires.  After having so many groups claim me who had none of my beliefs, I had this army destroyed, then afterwards went after a country that had done things that needed to be stopped;  I understand there are spies, and I could give a shit...  but what I found was slaughter, child soldiers, etc..

I suppose if you are able to access this you have some knowledge of this situation.  Probably more than I have.  Though the same folk who went after Gnl Butler Smedley came for me, and got a similar response, though much more bloody.  They made a movie Amsterdam that pretends no one knew who the people who tried to get the Most Decorated and respected Marine of his time to go Fascist, though you can find their names, and they are still there.

I have lost all hope for this world surviving the greenhouse effect.  I would start preparing for that now, rather than some pipedream that humans will survive this.  Some have their underground places, et...  most will be left in chaos.

AGAIN, set me free and pay me.  I want seventeen years of a CO'S back pay and full retirement, so I can spend me last few years trying to make the most of a miserable life, which yes, I blame a lot of you for.   I think back to all the times I saved this country and wonder if I was wrong?  

I forgive you all thOugh I may not always appear that way.  Annoyed as hell, yes.  I keep reminding myself life is eternal and this is a miniscule part of time.  Death is the only escape from the horrors my mind and emotions and body.

After this shit life I understand why getting into Heaven takes a lot more than most have.  Why so few are said to be going.

I used to have a hard time believing in hell, then on Good Friday, during a lucid dream, I went into hell.  The timing was odd of course.  Nothing of the sort has happened before.

I feel the waves of hatred people have for me.  How you make sport of me.  Worse, how you use to make money.    I have been objectified, life humans do with almost everyone.  From God to Satan to a demi-God, a spy.....  I fought you, and I am glad you fought the image they portrayed me as, with their LOBSTER crap, etc.  Those who went along were duped.   I feel anger over all this.   The lost lives in this matter....

The only way for me to keep my vow of trying to preserve what bit of a democracy we have, is to stop endorsing candidates.   I am not coming back on line....  just want to set things straight.   I do look forward to meeting you all in spirit.

God bless.