MUCH happened since this entry, which was written during a time of war in the intelligence community, and I pray for Copper every day, and that there is not another insurrection.... though we will be there to answer the cry of the eagles... keeping hope alive, and giving the world a chance, stopping the Chaos always lurking in the night, in the minds of the heartless, pumped up. whatever.....
Today is the day I die
the only way a man can fly
up and kiss the sky
where death awaits with open thighs
I guess now my white skin is more of a disguise, or what I am under all this blood. We call ourselves copper, because to honor the dead we never wash off the blood of our kills.
Regardless of how this metaphor is applied, there has been a 'seeming' reaction in the world to my realizing that I will have to take this kingship, underground, because the position is too vital to fall into evil hands. I am a true king, with the welfare of the people, all people, at the forefront of all my actions, and I serve rather than am serve. I am in the oldest of traditions of these things, in some ways, but I am progressive.
I do not live in a monarchy. I am however in the position to inspire my country, and help people now that I no longer require a cover to decipher what my enemies, perceived, incorrectly in some cases before and probably still, though they exist.. I feel this is a responsibility. Not my choice, but a right by birth granted by God in my case. I know that this is an old notion, and has been abused by many who are royalty, but my working class mindset will never allow me to think that leadership is more than a burden. I understand this very well, because I have lived a life of sacrifice for my country for most of my life, even when I did not know it... more than likely all my life. But the reason I have ended up their king is because without reforms, they will die. Become irrelevant. I will help all people, which is what a great king does. I have no intention of being anything less than the greatest king in history. Period. That involves first and foremost sacrifice and service. My own needs must always be secondary even to the poorest, most judged worthless by others, who are in my domain. I must make peace with all other kings in this country, and they exist.
I had to make massive reforms in the people who want me to do this before I would have considered it, because it took being an outlaw to their system to change it. A rebel king who brought down usurpers. My mother has claimed my throne, and actually changed the name to hers, and she is a traitor to this country and the crimes against humanity that she has inspired make her name shit, I will not allow this to happen. I am a Ridgway, and there have been many good ones in the past, though the last few generations of Ridgway's seem to have grown hateful, xenophobic -- which is cowardly and fear based, while I am courageous and honorable, a friendly man to all, even those who I must fight, I will always keep in mind that ultimately my goal is peace. I must also make sure that any fighting done in my name is tactically correct. This means civilians are NEVER HARMED.... SINCE any fighting we will have to do will basically be unconventional warfare, urban guerrilla tactics will be required. However, we serve this country, not ourselves. I am a soldier of the USA, always first and foremost. A king with a duty to democracy, not a Monarch in the traditional sense. My duty is to humanity, not one race or even the people who have tried and tried to offer me too much power. The days of kings is over basically, but in the underground they still have them. I would rather this were not so, but at the same time I see the logic of a shadow force, which can do what the government cannot, operating within this country for the good of all.
